Broken Hearted
She came and sat on the bed with me, handing me things and giggling. When my eyes filled up with hot tears she took over and put things in my bag all by herself. She leant over and gave me a kiss while I did everything I could to swallow down the lump in my … Read more
Waiting
This is what misinformed care and terrible listening looks like. Ok, it could be a lot worse but I have about twenty of these things littered across my body and as they’re starting to split and crack and blister they’re starting to hurt. As an added bonus I feel like I’ve been steamrollered by the … Read more
Goldfish
On Sunday night I noticed some red blotches on my skin, pale in the middle and with raised edges my first thought was it must be an allergy. Only there is nothing new that would have provoked such a reaction so I moved onto hives maybe. Google is both a wonderful and a terrible thing. … Read more
Holiday
I’ve been feeling so trapped. Trapped in my life, trapped in my body, trapped in my mind. I want to get away but I can’t leave myself behind. This morning I talked myself into needing a holiday. Yes, a holiday where we can all be together somewhere else, somewhere outside our own lives – that … Read more
Spectator
She doesn’t need me anymore, doesn’t want me around. She doesn’t run to me like she has done almost with out fail until now. She doesn’t bring me toys, she doesn’t want cuddles. She’s easily distracted by daddy, she wants the person who has been her parent. She doesn’t know me, I don’t think she’s … Read more
Mega (Blok) Valentines
Ah Valentines day. Are you a lover or a hater? Personally I sit on the fence; part of me is all bring on the presents and adoration, the other commercially cynical half thinks you shouldn’t need a reason to show your other half that you love them. Saying that, I think I would be a … Read more
Lactation, Latches And Loss
Exactly one year ago today, at 3pm to be precise, Beans was no longer a breastfed baby. We made it through two long, agonising weeks of literally constant feeding, screaming and bad latches. We asked and asked for help, we repeated over and over that something wasn’t right. Two days before was the first time … Read more
If I Ask Very Nicely…
Circle of Moms are running a poll to find the top 25 PND blogs. I am on the list and just a few votes would see me enter the top 25. If you think I am worthy then (pretty please) could you swing by and vote for me? All it takes is one click so … Read more
Mix-Tape Monday
Blockbusters. So this week it’s songs from the big screen. Of which there are many, as I found when I had to make a choice. Here is mine: Yes, there are better, yes it’s cheesy, but it reminds me of the day the husband first told me he loved me. Him and his friends got … Read more















